People change over time, and the experiences that you once laughed about and cherished can be the ones you really regret. I don't tend to regret a lot of experiences because they are the same moments in my life that have shaped me and who I am. However, lately, I have just been getting different vibes from certain people whom I really admire and respect.
Maybe part of me is afraid to admit that I’m, in some part, not enough for them. I have this fear that I'm never good enough because I'm not successful or not cool enough, and yeah, it sucks.
But what also sucks is seeing that the person you once admired and treated with so much respect doesn't see you the same and probably never will.
I get that people change and have different perspectives that will change over time, but for some reason, that pain of losing someone you want to be close to just doesn't go away. I feel like this has always happened to me every year.
There's nothing I can do to salvage a relationship if they don't want it, so I've gotten better at letting those people in my life go. I've gotten better at being alone and I do realize that letting go of people doesn't make me any less of a person. Yet despite my efforts, it still hurts. This is something that has been on my mind for the past month, since returning to campus and seeing some of those people and thought I would put this out there.
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